This is what Psalm 84 says: My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the Lord; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God. Even the sparrow has found a home, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may have her young— a place near your altar, LordAlmighty, my King and my God. Blessed are those who dwell in your house; they are ever praising you.
My soul is yearning for the courts of the LORD - on my walk this morning I walked through “my field” swallows were swooping on the wing all around me. I was reminded of that verse – even the swallow has a home with God.
I feel so like that swallow – swooping and flying, darting and diving and yet there is a place to for me to go. Even when I feel unworthy, unpardonable, worthless even - I have a home in the throne room of God. A place where the God of mercy and compassion blots out my wrongdoing, washes away all my sins and stretches out his hand of grace and forgiveness.
We rehash our mistakes, our failings, stupidity over and over again and yet we can trust in the God of love who keeps no record of our sin and who doesn’t remember all our shame – we are forgiven, set free, renewed, healed, restored, forgiven. Yes FORGIVEN.
When we come to him in our sorrow and shame over our disobedience and weakness (again), we need to remember we are forgiven, remember God is love, remember that nothing is impossible, remember that God keeps ALL His promises.
David says: Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. Open my lips, Lord, and my mouth will declare your praise. My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise.
There is joy, there is praise and thanksgiving , there is forgiveness and peace– even when I’ve messed up - there is a home for me.